My pain persists, however my heart is no longer closed to love. I have invited others to sit beside me, which has made the unbearable of life – bearable. I have learned that grief and love occur in tandem, and without feeling the former, the latter would cease to exist. While it is a searingContinue reading “grief & love occur in tandem”
Category Archives: Grief
this beating heart
I hear my heart beat loudly against my ribs, How I thought I had no heart Yet here it is, Thrumming life to my body.
still glows
I wrote this last year, while living in the south of France. I adored feeling like a butterfly that flits in and out, without letting anyone really know me. I existed with a quiet sadness and loud joviality. I am a figment of your imagination – an elusive being you never knew, an ebullient lightContinue reading “still glows”
Psalm 13
1 How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? 3 Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,4 and my enemy will say, “IContinue reading “Psalm 13”
Can I tear my heart out now?
How much is the heart capable of holding? For how long will my heart mold and morph to various affections? I continue to seek that which has been torn from me. My placeholders shatter me more each time. How has the love I once so easily held left me? Jesus, be near me as IContinue reading “Can I tear my heart out now?”
On finding peace & purpose amidst deep pain
Having peace means believing that God is for you, loves you, and will protect you. Sometimes circumstances may flood our hearts with sorrow, but God promises to never leave us and we can find comfort in this. One day our days of sorrow will come to an end. Until then, we must navigate the worldContinue reading “On finding peace & purpose amidst deep pain”
Healer of hearts, where are you?
Where is my antidote?Healer of hearts, where are you?Will you rescue me from my distress?Men’s empty embrace cannot caress the wounds only you see.A strange man plants a soft kiss on my cold cheek,yet feels how I do not shift.Beside my bedside table lie empty prescription bottles—they cannot medicate my soul, my mind.I beg forContinue reading “Healer of hearts, where are you?”
A Prayer for the Lost and Suffering
Father, Why did I ever depart from your benevolent hands? Your mercy and love, goodness and grace never left me. You are the source of all that is light in this world. Though sorrow floods my heart, your rod and your staff, they comfort me. May those who know me know your gentle kindness andContinue reading “A Prayer for the Lost and Suffering”
The Ophelia Edit 