Category Archives: Grief

So much of me is what I learned from you. To remove the mark of your presencewould be like plucking the stars from the sky—how dark the world would be. I must learn to live without you,my guiding star.

Last night, I saw you in a dream.I heard your laughter, but could not see your face.Morning came, and you were no longer there—yet the sun still shone. I rose to make myself tea,haunted by the memory of you.

I hear my heart beat loudly against my ribs, How I thought I had no heart Yet here it is, Thrumming life to my body.

1 How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?    How long will you hide your face from me?2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts    and day after day have sorrow in my heart?    How long will my enemy triumph over me? 3 Look on me and answer, Lord my God.    Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,4 and my enemy will say, “IContinue reading “Psalm 13”

How much is the heart capable of holding? For how long will my heart mold and morph to various affections? I continue to seek that which has been torn from me. My placeholders shatter me more each time. How has the love I once so easily held left me? Jesus, be near me as IContinue reading “Can I tear my heart out now?”

Having peace means believing that God is for you, loves you, and will protect you. Sometimes circumstances may flood our hearts with sorrow, but God promises to never leave us and we can find comfort in this. One day our days of sorrow will come to an end. Until then, we must navigate the worldContinue reading “On finding peace & purpose amidst deep pain”

Father, Why did I ever depart from your benevolent hands? Your mercy and love, goodness and grace never left me. You are the source of all that is light in this world. Though sorrow floods my heart, your rod and your staff, they comfort me. May those who know me know your gentle kindness andContinue reading “A Prayer for the Lost and Suffering”